e‧piph‧a‧ny (i-pif-uh-nee) –noun, plural -nies.
"a sudden, intuitive perception of or insight into the reality or essential meaning of something, usually initiated by some simple, homely, or commonplace occurrence or experience."
That's what I had this week. I "left" Scrapbookers Dream a week ahead of time due to "scheduling difficulties." If you read between the lines, you can see that I'm being "diplomatic" about the situation. Ok, enough with the quotes.
I began my week not spending money and focusing, once again, on de-cluttering and simplifying. What I realized is that my house had not just been neglected over the last few months - it had been completely ignored. Messes were left where they were made, animals had taken over, the laundry on the bottom of the pile still sported June's dirt. When you're home for a grand total of 10 hours a week, some of which is sleeping, you don't have time to take a look around and realize what's happening.
This week, I haven't left the house in 3 days. I've been in my tank top and flannel pants, scrubbing carpet, walls, counters, desks, and hardwood floors. I've been organizing, throwing away, moving, packing, and unpacking. I've been spending time playing with my son, teaching him to help me do laundry and dishes and cook. I've been planning his birthday party, cooking dinner for my husband, and just, in general, making my family my priority.
It's AWESOME. I feel good. My house is beginning to look like a house agian. My husband is ELATED. My son is happy to be with his mom. And most of all, I feel as though I've had an epiphany.
This is my job. Yes, I knew that before, but I didn't realize just how much of this "house" (and when I say house, I mean everything it encompasses) depended on me to make it run. I am a believer now - mothers are the glue that hold families together.
I am 99% sure that I will not be teaching again next quarter. I have some other "ventures" that I would like to focus on, and obviously, my family is coming first. I may pick up a class or two here and there, but for the most part, I'm finished.
I feel as though my spending is slowly but surely coming under control. I have the tools I need to support my hobby. I'm happy, and I have a wonderful family that misses me..
It's time to accomodate them now.
