I'm a Control Freak

There. I said it. Is there a support group for this? I am such a control freak. It drives me CRAZY, because it basically means I can NEVER EVER RELAX. I'm always wondering how many things I can stick my busy little nose into, what in the world is going to collapse if I'm not around to make sure it doesn't, who will mess up their own stuff without me around to tell them how to live their lives..

And you know, the world's still going to turn without my assistance. I mean, seriously. So if I realize this, why can't I just stop being a control freak?

This weekend, I now have two goals. The first one is to let go - just that. Let go of everything that bothers me, let go of my insecurities, let go of thinking that if I stop forcing myself to be useful I will become obsolete.. just let go.

My second goal for the weekend is to scrap something for me. I said it in an earlier post this week. I've been scrapping and modpodging and doodling and making gift albums and all kinds of things lately - but nothing specifically for me. So here I am with a whole lot of pent-up energy and no outlet. I'll be turning it into creativity this weekend. Maybe I'll have some good news to report Monday.. but you know I'll be keeping you posted until then. Wish me luck.