Five Minutes
Here I sit with my first five minutes to myself (literally people) since Sunday morning at 6am.
Something's missing here. I'm not sure what it is, but I just have this strange empty feeling.. it's been growing lately. I still have all the usual qualms about everything - not enough time with Zion or Mike, worrying about my job, wondering if we're going to be able to make this month's budget (budget? wth's a budget?) - usual mom stuff.
But I feel like I'm approaching something big. I keep trying to figure it out, and I'm guessing, but nothing feels right. Almost like a lifestyle change is due. Does that make sense?
I believe we all change constantly, and that the core of your person stays where it is. But this just feels like it's bigger than me - like a higher power is saying, HELLO - it's time to do something different.
I just wish I could get half a clue as to what it is.
Something's missing here. I'm not sure what it is, but I just have this strange empty feeling.. it's been growing lately. I still have all the usual qualms about everything - not enough time with Zion or Mike, worrying about my job, wondering if we're going to be able to make this month's budget (budget? wth's a budget?) - usual mom stuff.
But I feel like I'm approaching something big. I keep trying to figure it out, and I'm guessing, but nothing feels right. Almost like a lifestyle change is due. Does that make sense?
I believe we all change constantly, and that the core of your person stays where it is. But this just feels like it's bigger than me - like a higher power is saying, HELLO - it's time to do something different.
I just wish I could get half a clue as to what it is.
posted by SevenHappyScrappers at 6:06 PM
1 Comments:
I know what your drift is Sara.
I have just completed this intense 30 week study program, religious based, and it is soooo different from anything I have learned before. I keeping asking myself "WHAT DO I DO NOW?" and try to work out what that something is that is tugging me.
Most of Christian teaching in middle class america is about helping the poor (to bring them up in life, up to a higher standard). But the focus of this program was bringing yourself DOWN to the poor, being WITH the poor not just giving money and such, really learning, understanding and KNOWING the poor, imprisoned, lonely, dejected, trampled up. Finding out WHY people are poor in the first place and doing something about that too! We were studying how Jesus actually lived, and how that applies to ME, Now in the 21st century.
If you come up with some answers or ideas, share.
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